I don’t know about you but my head feels a bit scrambled at the moment..it reminds me of how I felt after Gary died…I was trying to carry on with life but my familar was gone, and there was little space to have clarity in my mind…the difference for me now is that my heart and head aren’t both scrambled simultaneously… Now it’s just my thoughts trying to catch up with my new reality!

The lessons and learnings of cancer and grief are really supporting me at the moment, in fact as a ‘whole’ within our Dishwashing family we have had conversations in relation to the familiarity of the feelings of uncertainty, and Gary’s words of strength to us in his darkest moments…he would often say to me his mantra.. ‘ we can’t change what is happening Tracey, but we can manage how we handle it! ‘

I guess that’s what directs my discourse of life now…I’m more mindful of my thoughts my behaviours and my heart and their interlocking connection…

This morning when I went for my solo run in my therapy ground of Necarne my head was tumbling with thoughts, my body was resisting the running, but my heart knew it needed the feelings of energy…

So it is at this time of change we will battle with our thoughts, our feelings will flood our beings, and our hearts will be hurting…like all moving functioning devices one part has an impact on the next, as it is with a performance, each person involved directs the course of the action on stage…

So when one part of you feels a bit jaded, a bit out of sorts, or overwhelmed… look at what you can do however small to ‘oil’ the mechanics of your heart, your head, and your behaviour, keep safe xox