So today started with a ‘Chocolate Trail’…from the Cup Niks bedroom to mine to start her 17th Birthday Celebrations! It was the familiarity of a birthday but the celebration of it has been an altered reality..

For months the Cup has been planning this day she was to be ‘off’ College, and she had told Grandad he would be teaching her to drive..he was to pick her up from rowing training, they would get breakfast…drive and then have lunch before he would drop her back to rowing training…

She still smiled..she got in the car…my nerves were alert (moments like today I am reminded of the reality of the two C’s which have altered our Dishwashing Family Path).

However like the first driving lesson…it was jerky at times…there were moments of fear and STOP!!! But me and the Niks did it!!

If one thing Widowhood has taught me is that when I doubt myself, the ‘I Can’…whispers somewhere deep inside me to allow the shout of it to manifest!

My Cups are the same…Alex is making the Cake and has set up the birthday tea…the birthday Cup said to me today…’what is wrong with being at home?’

That made me smile…coming from the daughter who is always ‘out!’…it made my heart flutter with love ♥️ xox